general ramblings · life

Break from Knitting

I was going to post some of my FOs from the time of the lockdown in recent weeks, but I really haven’t been doing too well. My headache continues (although thankfully it’s been less severe for a few days now, yay!), we’re searching for the primary cause but with no success so far.

I’ve had a cervical MRI to out-rule or confirm disc herniation, and it didn’t show any changes in the cervical spine. This may seem like good news, but in a situation when I don’t know what’s going on and can’t be treated except some pain management, I think I’d rather have the known diagnosis already. As things are, I am waiting for the confirmation of the date of the appointment with the neurology consultant (still no news, even though I keep calling the clinic – pandemic is not a good time to get sick, everything takes even more time than usual) and trying to avoid Google, although it’s probably too late as I’ve already found all the worst options possible. I’m also trying to help myself in case if some spine-related issues affect my headaches, despite the negative MRI – I’ve changed the chair to a kneeling one (because I am not able to sit straight on a normal chair, I always end up half-squatting or sitting on my feet), try to strengthen my core muscles, and I have a new orthopaedic pillow.

It is a little better, but over a month of headaches that don’t respond too well to pain killers and never give me a break made me really grumpy and not very eager to do anything. Meanwhile, my job entered the busiest period, and there’s no time just to drown myself in self-pity!

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Seeking Comfort

How is everyone’s week going so far? Ready for the weekend?

I’ve been struck down pretty hard with occipital neuralgia, which is an inflammation or injury to the occipital nerves which innervate the back of the head including the area behind the ears. It is not the first time I’ve had this problem (it most likely stems from my C-PTSD which causes hypervigilance and constant muscle tension) but definitely the worst case so far. My neck, the back of my head, my ears and at times, my eyes hurt all the time, and it gets worse whenever I move. The pain is pulsating and dull, but from time to time, it’s very sharp and strong. I feel very sensitive to light (and it’s finally getting a little more warm and sunny!!!). It honestly sucks. I’m doing as advised by my GP: massaging the neck and shoulder muscles, trying to relax them, using heating pads and painkillers, but it’s not getting better. I’m going to see the GP again on Monday, so maybe it’s time to move to another treatment, like stronger anti-inflammatory meds, muscle relaxants, or even nerve block shots. We’ll see what she says; unfortunately, it’s a long-lasting condition. In any case, it’s no fun, and as you can imagine, I’m not doing much knitting because of the discomfort.

And since I mentioned discomfort, I thought this should be a good opportunity to talk about its opposite – comfort – and that brings me to my finished project: the Comfort Fade Cardigan.

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